To say it’s been a rough few months is an understatement. But the last few weeks have been the biggest revelation and reminder about what it means to take part in kingdom building!
Committing to Kingdom Building
At the end of last year, I said, “This coming year is gonna be one without fear. It’s time to get to work and take it seriously.” I decided that it was time to be dedicated 100% to what God’s been calling me to. NO EXCUSES. For those of you who have ever told God, “ Let’s go! Use me!”, riddle me this… did things become easier once you said that? What challenges did you face? How long did things seem to make very little sense?” (Asking for a friend lol) The moment I agreed to put in kingdom work, the enemy came at me hard.
Let me preface by saying, I’m on the winning side… we are on the winning side with God! So it seemed like things started coming out of the woodwork… random drama, emotional, spiritual & mental weakness, random disagreements with those closest to me, more drama, and then physical sickness (that I’m just now getting over) UPDATE: I got bronchitis with a double dose of the cold! I’ve been sick for almost 3 weeks. Also, I must point out, I haven’t been physically sick in over a year, so getting sick amid everything was just the cherry on top.
Encouragement Through Kingdom Building
Now, the beauty of all of this craziness is the encouragement I can share with you… the moment you do anything in life, there’s some sort of hater right? Well when you step it up a notch and make moves hand in hand with God, your biggest hater and his minions will try it ALL to get you down and discouraged. God is calling you and me to the thing or things that we’re supposed to be doing and He’s bigger than our haters. He’s already won, that’s why the haters are mad!
After a season like this guys, I have to talk to you about the promises and reassurance that God gave me from His word.
Genesis 28:15 “… I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”
This portion of Scripture is a dream that Jacob had while he was out in the middle of nowhere and needed rest for the night. God showed up to him in a dream and gave him this message. Can you imagine God just showing up and letting you know that things would be alright and that He was leading? *mind blown* That’s what I knew I was needing from God during this seemingly chaotic season in my life and He reassured me with His word. The journey of Jacob in Genesis has caught my eye and heart because through it all God was leading and guiding Jacob to exactly where He wanted him to go. The obedience and continual movement forward by Jacob are so crucial because he could have easily said, “God, I don’t know why you want me going over here, but I don’t feel like it.” But instead, he asked no questions and kept moving along because he trusted that God knew where He was taking him.
I’m not gonna lie and say that I didn’t run away for a couple of days, but I did, and in that time I knew that God was calling me to just sit with Him and glean from what He was saying. He wanted my focus to be on Him, my strength to be solely dependent on Him, and my heart to be completely silent so that I could clearly hear Him just like Jacob did.
Update in the Midst of Kingdom Building
During this extended time of being “down and out”, I’ve come across yet another amazing portion of Scripture that rocked me! Joshua and that wall of Jericho (Joshua 5:13-6:27)! I’ve heard this story and plenty of sermons about it, but something that I just realized was this; Joshua and his army marched around a city that they were supposed to overtake, by marching around it for 7 days. PICTURE IT! You’re the opposing army and you know that this army is outside of your camp, and they start marching around and you’re kind of confused. I’m sure by the 4th or 5th day everyone in that camp just continued about their life, because nothing had “happened” for a few days. Now let’s go back to Joshua and his army. Joshua had direct orders from God to do exactly what he and his army were doing. But I can only imagine the army becoming confused just as much as the opposing camp inside. The beauty of this story is that Joshua knew that God said that He would hand over the city of Jericho into their hands. I love that although the directions from God seemed strange, Joshua obeyed without any questions asked and the Lord delivered.
There are so many people God wants to reach through you, through me. Let’s surrender all that’s stopping us from moving forward, the strange “small things”, the almost confusing directions God might be giving us. God’s guiding and leading us just like He did all the kingdom builders in the Bible to bring salvation, grace and His unconditional love to a world in need.
Don’t ever think you’re alone during the valleys of turmoil and uncertainty and seemingly aimless wandering- He’s walking and sometimes even carrying us through these times. He wants to get us up to the mountain peak to show us what’s next, all we have to do is be available to let Him lead us there, and OBEY Him even when it doesn’t make sense to us. The walls of our minuscule thoughts and plans will start falling as we walk in complete obedience to the direction God is calling us in.
ONWARD CHRISTIAN SOLDIER!
Check out this devotional for some encouragement on proceeding in light of what God’s put on your heart to do.