AT TIMES, this is what I think that people think of me…..
- I have gained weight.
- I am judgmental.
- I have split ends.
- I eat too much.
- I haven’t amounted to much for my age.
- I don’t have major goals compared to so many at my age.
- I have a crooked nose.
- I have acne a lot of the time.
- I am a complainer.
- I have a lot of hair on my arms.
I literally made that list of 10 things that I think that people regularly think of me in less than a minute.
Isn’t it so easy to do this to ourselves? Look at the simplest of “flaws” in and about ourselves. But then we can look at a friend, family member, coworker or even a stranger and name off 10 amazing things that we see in them, right?Why is that? Because…. ready for this… we are our own worst critic, and we base our opinion about ourselves according to what we see on social media, at the beach, going into a clothing store, magazines, blah, blah, blah.
At my age (29) I am at the heaviest weight of my entire life. Does it get me down MOST of the time? OF COURSE!
Buuuutttt….. I am not doing very much to change that at the present moment, so ultimately that’s my fault.
Now, something that I have really been trying to figure out is “Who am I?”
At 29 you would think that I would somewhat have that figured out…. well looky here….. I am continuously figure this one thing out about myself….
I AM A SINNER SAVED BY GRACE AND LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY BY MY GOD!
THAT’S WHO I AM.
Too spiritual? The funny thing is, this is my reality and nothing can deter me from that truth.
I know that there are a lot of people who don’t have the same beliefs and all that stuff as me…. that’s perfectly fine… but I would gladly hear you out on your beliefs and thoughts, so I would appreciate that same respect.
With that being said, it’s hard to live in a world that constantly says we have to be this skinny, this thick, this pretty, this fashionable and the like, but let me ask you, HOW DO YOU BENEFIT FROM ALL OF THAT?
Don’t get me wrong, health is one thing that I am realizing as a woman in my late 20’s is sooooo important. NOW, the first thing that is important, is your heart and mind.
In my experiences, I’ve noticed that I gravitate toward people who literally leave me wanting to find out what they do to be who they are. So that I can be them? ABSOLUTELY NOT! But to be a better version of who I am, because again, I am flawed beyond belief, but I am saved by grace.
With that, I can be confident in who God allows in my life to help me grow, help me improve so that ultimately, I would be someone who others would love to be around.
All that being said you guys, I don’t look for my worth in the latest fashion, the latest celeb gossip, the newest trend, the fanciest clothes and accessories… My worth and identity comes from who I am in Christ, and who I can love genuinely, and be a light through Him.